September, the kickoff to a new school year!
For many people working outside the home, the end of summer brings new or renewed focus, new projects to take on and new deadlines to check-off.
As a stay-at-home-mom (SAHM) I find September to be the toughest one to get through, and this year was no different.
Even with Hannah starting junior kindergarten and the new challenges, never mind the schedule we are working to get into the rhythm of, I found September to be a doozy for me personally.
It’s tough to see all those in your environment charge off to something new or get back into their work routine while you stay home with your kid getting ready to hit up the park (again) or the drop-in centre (again).
It’s hard not to feel like you’re being left behind. Or that you’re missing out on something.
My need to want a change was really, really high this year.
I don’t think I was a very fun person to be around.
I realize that a lot of parents don’t have the option of staying home. I write this blog post to those of us who are at home, and while grateful for the opportunity, I want to be honest that staying home can be really tough on an individual.
I left a management job at a large company to be at home. And have been home for 4 years now. The first 2 years were a ball of learning and balancing two babies, going through a renovation, making a home and becoming ‘mom’.
These last two years I have been sailing the ship in open waters.
We have had bouts of rough toddler waves but on the whole we’ve had a handle on it.
We’re currently in a relatively calm patch so I have the time to think about myself. Which actually seems like a bit of a luxury and vice versa also a major complication.
I still have one little one at home, Abby my 2.5 year old, who is a pretty laid back, I can play by myself kinda kid.
Initially I jumped online and started looking for full time jobs – excited to get back to the rat race. But then realized that at this point in our family, me going back full-time just doesn’t make sense.
Then I searched part-time employment – which would actually be amazing, the best of both worlds. But I quickly realized that the majority of part-time opportunities are based in customer service (read: retail) and don’t allow me to use my education, skills or passion.
As I sit in this waiting place wondering what my actual next step will be, I have decided to take this time to do things I haven’t been able to do since having kids.
Here’s my list:
- Newspaper subscription – I now get and read the newspaper everyday.
- Piano – I’ve pulled out some new challenging pieces that I am working on.
- Ukulele – I upgraded my amazon instrument to a real one, and have been enjoying practicing and learning the happiest instrument on earth.
- Book club – I joined a club with a bunch of women who are incredible, honest and loving.
- Meet-ups with friends who don’t have kids – it is refreshing to not talk about your kids, I’m just sayin’.
- Reading and listening to books on tape – a continued passion actually.
- Recipes – trying new recipes baking and for meals.
- Avoiding social media – yup I have really started to keep off of it.
- Purge – getting rid of all things unnecessary or outgrown in this house.
- Meditation – for many people this means many things, for me it is spiritual with God. I started baby steps reading a daily devotion app.
Next up is exercise – I’d like to get back into getting my heart-rate up. So far I bought a fitbit and it’s been fun tracking steps, but it would be more fun for me to actually do a class or something.
I’m hoping that pouring some time into finding and growing me as Debbie, and not just as mom, will help provide clarity when it’s time to move forward in my career.
How about you? Anyone else out there feel September is the toughest month? How do you cope?
Til next time,